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Monday, December 11, 2006
a quick update + a few more pics that i edited (:
gym and swim. and i felt really terrible in the water ): really gotta buck up and change my mindset if i wanna at least do ONE pb at nag. im too lazy to swim this coming time trial and even if i swim, i'll most probably be so embarrassed and i'll jst have even lesser confidence in myself. not to mention that im alrdy on the verge of giving up swimming right now.
peter came to the poolside this morning but he's leaving for aus tmr morning.. spoke to us for awhile and mentioned that it was a good year overall. i must say it is considering the results we have acheived as one, esp the commonwealth and asian games guys. they did really well (:
personally, this year was going on fine but it jst went down towards the end of this year and with the long breaks and slacking. i think everything that i have worked for this year has jst gone down the drain and its really hard to motivate myself to actually start trng hard again. i feel so demoralised everytime i trail behind everyone during sets which i used to be able to do with ease and it jst gets to me and i think im jst not a born-to-be swimmer. jst like what the stupid taxi driver said. he jst made me even more sure abt that. argh. such an ass.
had a good chat with Zena last night before i got too engrossed in asian games bowling so i didnt get to say alot of things so i'll jst say some here hope you wont mind Zena (: [anw, remy ong lost. arghh. make me stay up to watch hoping he can win.]
so anyway, she was telling me what her china friend told her " since we've choosen this path and started walking, we should go all the way and end it on a good note. " and she told me that was why she teared that day when Dipna, Nessa, Dandan and I told her that we were gna take O levels and in another words, put sports aside for the time being. yes its true that we came into this school together with one goal and that is to excel in both sports and studies but there can only be one winner and not everyone has what it takes to go all the way. to some, we may not have finish the journey but for me, i've been swimming for 10 years now, it is definately not easy for me to jst give up everything jst like that. it is not easy seeing others beat you jst like that. it is not easy admitting defeat. you're a great player and we all know that. you may not perform locally but im sure you can excel internationally with your unique playing style and you know that. we shouldnt let what the others say or do affect us so jst believe in yourself and do what you do best yes? i no longer have as much hunger/passion in my sport now so maybe its time to give it a looooong break. :D we may be going different ways next yr but our friendship will always remain. so dont be sad and have faith in yourself (:
on the cable car
my cous ! haahah. i think he looks quite good here. lol
the words seem a little out of place =/ aiya. i was bored :D
i look damn weird there. hahah.
(:
thats abt all i think.
better rest early tonight if not i'll jst like drown tmr. hahah.
nite!
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